It starts with my ego, an insidious emotion that makes me question why this person is talking to me this way.

It starts with a little feeling that I should get even with this person who is making me feel like crap.

It starts with losing some part of myself because I am reacting to a situation which is getting out of control.

One bad feeling turns into another, one little bit ego turns into tens and thousands of big egos and random feeling of getting even turns into countless feelings of anger.

In what seems like an instant, anger has taken over me.

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I could say that in my full blown anger, the person responsible for my anger is that person who has provoked me. Or that situation that has happened to me.

But that would be a lie and an excuse.

It is not something on the outside that presents the greatest challenge for my anger.

It is me who is responsible for the birth or death of my anger.

What is inside me either prevents me from becoming angry and angrier by the minute or it fuels the fire that anger needs for more of it.

If I am strong, I can prevent my anger from progressing further.

But, in my fight to win over this person who is making me lose my control, I lose sight of this fact.

I lose sight of what is truly important and get lost in all the little things that do not matter in the end.

I get sucked back into this endless cycle that I do not want, but I do it anyway because my ego is making me fight ruthlessly with every person who dares to make me angry.

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The greatest enemy of my anger is not another person or a situation.

The greatest enemy to my progress of managing my anger is ME.

Of course people are bound to make others angry. That is a given.

Friction is bound to happen when a person interacts with another human being.

Unless of course that person lives in an island.

But I wouldn’t even get sucked in full blown anger if I could make myself a higher priority all the time.

If I treated myself as a person who doesn’t react to situations, if I did not go back on my word that I would never become provoked, if I learned to manage my anger.

The fact that I am losing control means that others are controlling me.

To improve, I must go back and learn how my emotions work.

To grow and progress, I have to become a person ready to manage anger no matter the situation or no matter who triggered me.

To progress further, I have to learn to let go of my ego permanently.

No excuses. No exceptions.

These two quotes perfectly describe what I am saying:

“How much more grievous are the consequences of anger than the causes of it.” Marcus Aurelius

“Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else. You are the one getting burned.” Buddha

Check out: How do I control Anger and Inspiring outlet for Anger!

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To Your Inspirations,

Banchi